Thursday, April 26, 2007
i said that no matter what the results are as long as we enjoy our self its worth it, BUT i never thought it would be so hard to accept the fact that we got a silver.
I have some how convinced myself that we can get gold but when some part deep inside me know we cant we are NOT THERE, i have been blinded by my desire that i have forgotten about my feelings i neglected half of me, i could have told someone something but all i can say is that "i think we are there" there is so many things i could have said but didn't, so many things i can do but choose not to.
This has woken everyone up, also left something inside of me making me stronger to face the next sfy, to make it better, to make those who laughed and mock at us CRY AND FELT THE PAIN WE ARE GOING THOUGHT NOW! Its alright to laugh at us BUT DO NOT LAUGH AT MS FARIDAH! someone who i truly respect. bloody fuckers!
I will never forget this day, and i swear that in my year i will make everything change and those who laugh at us regret !
this is now not about me, is about everyone around me who loved me , the whole of angklung band, and our pride, and heal all the hearts that were broken today.
this day will haunt my until i achieve my goal
